Well, don't we all change?

Everyone is changing at the same time. I understand that change is inevitable, but do we all have to do it at once? It would be nice to find just one person who is basically the same way they were two months ago. Where some us are maturing, some of us are regressing; some of us are on the right path while some are headed in the wrong direction. I can finally clearly see who will always be in my life and who definitely will not. Then there are those in the middle, who sway from side to side daily.

Things Change

I thought that things were finally starting to get better with us. I guess I was wrong. I have absolutely no control over this situation and it drives me insane. I'm taking as much control over this situation as I can. I will not let this disintegrate. Everything that should have been done a long time ago will be done, and now.

Dragonfly Forever

I got my tattoo! My mom got the same one, it's a blue dragonfly. It's a symbol of love for my late father, Louis Fasulo. My aunt Jo, who lives in Florida, told us of two dragonflies that would constantly return to her garden; one green and one blue. These were no normal dragonflies, for they would land on the ground and on my aunt! I went to visit her a few months later and what do I see,. but two dragonflies that landed on me! I was playing with them and they were calm the entire time. They kept coming back each day. We say that the blue one is my dad and the green is my aunt's dog, Chancey. Ever since then, I have been followed by blue dragonflies: at my graduation, when my mom has surgery, when I'm sad and countless of other times. I wasn't even as nervous as I thought I would be when I got this tattoo. I'm sure that my dad was right there,watching over me. My cousin, Rob was the one who designed and did the tattoo. (http://www.facebook.com/#!/robgenovese?ref=search)

I love you Rob and Daddy!

So much has been going on in my life lately. I honestly don't know how to process all of this. These people are coming back into my life, and now people are slowly leaving. It's all so confusing. I need to do better this time. I have to do better by myself. I've been so concerned about everyone else that I no longer take any sort of care for myself.

The Five of Us

It started out with the five of us. We're now down to three. I would gladly put everything behind us, but it isn't in my control... I know I'll always have the two who are left, but there are still the losses of the other two. They have been the only stable things in my life for a while now. We've drifted of course, but who doesn't. The important thing is that we always come back to each other, and it feels like no time has passed. That is what true friendship is.